Imagination

I wonder why we have it. I get taken so often from what i should be concentrating on, into something so visually stimulating, i sit there without blinking for minuets.

I find people interesting, and i like being in the company of people, thats how we were made - but sometimes i would rather sit with my self and my imagination, i need my space. This can be dangerous, it's a scary thought that maybe one day, i will enjoy being in my head more than with my friends.

Imagination, is developed from what we know. In my head the scenery is an image of my favorite earthly places, and the people have character trades which i value in my friends. The new stuff, which we haven't experienced, thats the stuff which God plants in us.

Imagination is a gift, i have heard so many people talk about "living in your head" and how this means your not making the most of your life. But Imagination and Reality, are very close worlds, and used correctly ..i don't know what would happen if they were used correctly, i don't even know if there is a way to use your head in the right way, or train your mind to only think certain things.

All i know is that i think sometimes people get scared of spending time with themselves, because they don't want to get to know themselves. It's idea of facing the problems with your character or issues with people around you which scare the hell out of you. And are just easier not to face.

After completion of my 1hr45min mock exam, i am worried my perfectly able right hand is just going to stop working right in the middle of the real exam. This is where i wish i could write with both hands, that way i could swap over half way through.

The Temper Trap.

We turned up to a gig, and left experiencing worship which was unearthly and cosmic. This is when life is at its best, when it chucks surprises right in your face, and doesn't let you absorb them.

The great hall in Cardiff Students Union holds 3000, the gig was sold out, and all 6000 eyes were crazed for this hypnotic man, moving dancing praising across the stage. I think it must of been 20mins in when Dougie (the lead guy - who btw once studied fashion and marketing) first opened his eyes.

Musically it was perfection, i wanted to vertically lie on the floor and absorb fully all that was being played. And what was being played was a cry, a calling for something more, it was pure worship done in a public place through mainstream music. Something which ive never experienced, but want to spend my life promoting and pursuing.

The last song, and dougie who had spent the time unaware that anyone was watching him, launched himself into the audience, he moved himself down to where me and warren were standing, and warren just prayed for him, and when it looked like doug was gunna leave, he stayed for a while longer.

Sweaty, hot and speechless we left, and decided we had to atleast try and meet the band and encourage them. So we waited, after a while i spotted a guy walk past me, it took me a few seconds to trigger, but it was the bassist. I couldn't leave him go, so just as he was about to shut the tour bus door, i go ..

"Excuse me.. Are you a christian?"

Confused and most probs scared, he re asked what i said, and he replied yes i am. This launched into a conversation between the three of us, and basically he said "I feel God's anointed our gigs" and "pray for Dougie, he needs it."

Amazing. Truly and unbelievable night. x