With all this free time i've got, not being in college etc etc. I decided to make some clothes, and then make a video to advertise the clothes. There not the most amazing designs or whatever, but they are what they are, if you fancy prancing round in one of them, then your welcome too. Just drop me a message.

Love x

'FOOTBALL'i just needed to do that, so when i look back, i know that this is the day after England got knocked out of the world cup, by those Germans. I read something on facebook, and it was like 'we managed to win a war, but loose a game of football', made me chuckle!

I've just spent the past hour laughing at youtube videos, there is some hilarious people in this world! Like this guy who was reading Twilight, and he like pointed out everything which was wrong with it, and now i don't love it so much.

And this girl who asked the question 'Are you anyones favorite person?', and she didn't think she was anyones - which wasn't funny at all infact it was rather sad.

I was watching Big Brother's Little Brother, and there was this 'Ora' lady on it, who measured peoples energy, and then like coloured in a picture of a brain, to show there personality. Which personally i think is beyond ridiculous, but she's obviously making alot of money out of her crayon coloured pictures which is lovely! Good for you dear.

Im off to Barcelona in a week, what i like about new places is that it gives you something new to look at. I am also excited to sus out inner city Spanish fashion.

And i do have a favorite person - and its a complete secret!

Across the hall, im shrinking, beyond site and open minds

unearthly creatures listen to me

i've seen you with my own eyes,

upturned stereos

from when you said i have no taste.

Peacock

Pigeon

Duck or

Swan

A bird which doesn't fly

Id cut open your insides

if it meant there were no lies.

Quickly what's on my mind.

1) Romeo & Juliet.

i wonder if they would regret ever falling in love in the first place, if they knew it would end in death? I don't think they would of given it a seconds thought.

2) Words.

Just because Shakespeare was an impressive writer,and had an imagination, which echoed reality, does that mean he was a good socializer?

3) Relationships.

Its a grid of complex lines, in which everyone wants to know where there stand.

4) Bedroom.

I need to clean it.

5) August.

Will be a month of discovery and excitement. And i am very excited about it.

I am struggling with being a nice person today. Actually i've struggled with it for the past few weeks, i don't like to admit im stressed, but i think i just might be.

I've always liked exams, but not this year, i have Drama tomorrow, and have decided that it makes it more exciting if you have to blag it slightly, under pressure with a time limit. So i am looking forward to my challenge. Let me just revise Stanislavki and im ready to go.

I had a hair cut this morning, its not quite what i expected, but im now over the initial shock and am focusing on the good points

1) i have no split ends

2) i am back to my natural colour.

They're all the good points i can scrape together at the moment. I discovered that i became very attached to my hair, it was a bit of a security blanket, if my hair looked good then i didn't need to worry about my face. Now, i guess, i'll just have to worry more about my face.

Hair grows.

Ok Stanislavki, lets get back to 'the magic If'

x x x

I wanted to talk today about why i believe in God, its something that i've mentioned, but have never explained - And i see it as my most interesting quality, so hear goes...

(this is really difficult btw)

Christianity is about relationships, its not about conforming to rules or regulations, in fact the people who i look up to, are the ones who have broken the rules, who listen and have a solid relationship with Jesus.

When i was in year 9 & 10, i had warts all over my hands, and more than anything it really ruined my confidence and i hated God, i didn't understand why if he was good he would let his happen. It came to the end of year 10, and i was so fed up, i agreed to go to this christian festival called soul survivor http://www.soulsurvivor.com/uk/index.html and on the last night in the main meeting they said if you need prayer for illness stand up, it literally took everything i had, to over come my embarrassment and ask for healing. By standing up that day, i was trusting God that he would heal me. And he did, and i knew he did from the moment i stood up, the following weeks i saw my hands heal and return to normal, for the first time in like over 2 years.

Make of that what you will. What i want to say is that, Christianity is a personal thing, to have somebody who loves you and knows you completely is scary but amazing. Its a difficult challenge, it involves doing things you don't want to do, facing fears and taking risks, but its about trust in God.

Christians arn't a separate race, you probs didn't realize i was a christian when you first met me, and i like it that way.

My church is amazing, i love it http://www.antiochchurch.co.uk/ Sunday is the highlight of my week, i get tea, friends, music, jesus in one morning. Super!

anyway, hope that was a little insight, ask me questions if you wish, im not gunna pretend to know all the awnsers, but i'll do my best.

Love

x

1.The days are long and there dragging, i hate routine and im completely trapped in one, its been 2 days - 5hours of revision and 10 cups of tea, and i want out.

2."somebody come save me.

because

when i pause for a moment, i can see how you could ruin me"

June 2nd. Just 15 days. Just 15 days to solve problem one.

problem two is going to take years.

sigh.